Throughout the whole Christmas time, I prisoned myself in the library of Chinese University. Nobody put me into a jail. I made myself do it and it was a really enjoyable imprisonment which I would keep doing it if time is allowed.

I was moving in between two libraries there. One is at the main campus while another one is in Chung Chi College. Towards the end of my holiday, I got a strange discovery which made me both excited and annoyed.

If you are graduates of Chung Chi College students, you should be familiar with what kinds of books you can find most in Chung CHi library. They are books for music, education, religion plus literature on the whole floor. Literature includes all kinds of literature like English literature, American, Oriental and drama.

Enjoyment!
Thats a word which really rings my bell and keeps lingering in my mind on the way home.
A little sharing with you! On the way home I kept thinking about what happened on me at the end of the workshop today! My mind went blank at that moment when I was standing there in front of my classmates. But the most frustrating part is that lots of ideas were visualizing in my mind of what I could do while I was taking MTR. I believe that if i could be given a one more chance, I would know what to do then.
Sometimes I really found a bit frustrated when I saw my classmates full of creativity work. I am so pleased to see how creative they are as for myself I am always labelled as "intellectually smart".  So in a way, pressure has been given on myself which I wanna break it. The more I try, I farther away i am.
But today as you said, I was too concerned about the end result unconsciously as I want to make it better.
Actually similar experience happened when I was doing my ethnodrama with my groupmates who were creatively fast on production while I was a dummy stepping on the same place. At that time I felt so intimidated and sad. I even doubt whether I was such a non-creative person. Once a very good friend of mine said I was not a really confident person. That's why I would be so upset by people's labelling me as"Intellectually smart. I don't like the way they call me as like I am retarded on another side like creativity. But oI do agree that i am not confident though people always think that I am.   I wish I can gain my confidence on myself and find the way out of my dead-end. i wish i can have a breakthrough.
I have to learn how to learn and I can share it with my dear students. I always tell my students that they should not look at the end product but have to enjoy the process.  But actually i am still learning what I have told them to learn. What happened today made me have deep reflection and realiztion.

Thanks for giving me a meaningful lesson today, 群仔.  You're such a nice person that you always see the good sides of people.